I have an 18 year old about to graduate from high school...
and 11 year old on the verge of womanhood..
and twin toddlers on the verge of the terrible twos or terrific twos as I'm trying to project onto them.
I was recently with a group of women discussing the seasons of life. They wanted to divide up into your current season and give each other support. I almost laughed out loud as they asked for empty nesters, then mothers of college age, then high school, then elementary school and then preschoolers. I was at a complete loss as to where to go. I am definitely not an empty nester and probably never will be at this rate. LOL. Anyway, I decided right then and there that I am living cross-seasonally. I wanted to go to the mothers of HS kids because I'm new at that age...but was asked to join the mothers of preschoolers and give wisdom. What a laugh! (For me, anyway.) Until, one particular young lady equated me and several others to Titus women and proceeded to tell how. I am humbled by that and blessed to be used. I also wanted to go to mothers of elementary age because I've never had a girl go through puberty and although I am a girl...I'm pretty far removed from it and want to be able to handle things with my daughter (s) gracefully. And then, I'm back at square one, with babies...fighting for time with God because I'm tired.
Reality. Crazy. But God has given me grace time and time again as He meets me where I am. I am focusing on ABIDING in Him even if my time in the word is less than I want it to be. I want to be so much more than I am. I am my worst critic, I'm sure. At least I hope there's no one out there harder on me than me...because I can be harsh. I tease my hubby about being a perfectionist...but truth is, I am one, but only when it comes to me. Wonder why that is? Nevermind. It doesn't matter. It's wrong and I'm breaking free from it, well allowing God to break me free.
Don't know why I felt compelled to share that with you. Maybe because it's where I am right now and I've not been able to blog in depth for a while. Hope it gives you insight into my world.
Don't be strangers~